Generally, at the hours of darkness of night time, I prefer to get out into the condo’s dusty third ground balcony and sit silently. I get to squint into the home windows and balconies of different flats. It’s from a distance however it’s revelatory nonetheless.
A person is shooing pigeons off of the clotheslines on his condo’s balcony. The pigeons have dirty a number of the garments and the person places these garments on the ground of the balcony. Is that this for the maid to come back and accumulate and redo this laundry within the washer? There’s a washer within the balcony. Are they even permitting home assist inside their dwelling throughout COVID? The pigeons refuse to depart. It’s darkish and the birds can not see, in order that they return to the well-lit balcony. How did the person even know that there have been pigeons within the balcony? I hear them typically. Scratching on the highest of the metallic cowl of the air-conditioners put in at my condo. Perhaps they did the identical at this man’s condo. I can see an air-conditioner in his balcony.
My eyes wander to one thing flickering in one other window. It appears to be like like a display – a big one. A tv maybe. However what’s with all of the scrolling? Perhaps it’s a screen-saver of some type? The scrolling stops. Ah. They’re scrolling via what I can solely think about are infinite choices on their tv. Think about as a result of I don’t have a tv out of alternative. Haven’t had tv, or the related channels and applications, in over 12 years. I’m guessing that the variety of exhibits should have solely burgeoned.
A small mild exhibits up in one other window, which is in any other case fully darkish. It appears to be like like a smaller display. Bluish mild. The display is turned in direction of the window. Perhaps they’re making an attempt to take a look at one thing with out disturbing the sleep of whoever else is within the room? It’s too far for me to discern what’s on the display. This jogs my memory that I have to get my eyes checked. That is one thing that I’ve been which means to do for greater than six months now. I feel that I’ve not gotten round to doing this as a result of I’m going to seek out out that my eyes want glasses. For some motive, it seems like a betrayal. My eyes have betrayed me. My identify is “Naina”. I shouldn’t want glasses, ever. My ego is interfering with optical well being.
There’s a whiskey glass with gin and tonic in it, sitting subsequent to me. I sip from it intermittently. It’s 40 levels C exterior. The drink has gotten heat. No less than there aren’t any mosquitoes to chew my naked legs. I shove a free part of my over-sized t-shirt beneath my bra-less breasts. The sweat there will get absorbed by the t-shirt. I really feel barely much less uncomfortable, shopping for myself a couple of extra minutes on the balcony.
My neighbor’s front room lights are on. It’s late for him to have his lights on. Don’t previous folks sleep early? Particularly lonely previous folks whose spouses have handed away? He lives alone. He took up faculty once more, after his accomplice handed. I’m wondering if he would ever discuss with his spouse as his “accomplice”. She was candy. However ultimately, most cancers had its manner.
Who am I calling previous anyway? I turned 41 this yr. After I was 20, I used to suppose 40 yr olds had been previous. Now who’s previous? I needs to be variety to myself. No less than in my very own head. I needs to be light. My therapist informed me that I ought to change the dialog in my head. Or was it a self-help guide I learn? I can not recall accurately.
It’s too sizzling now. The breeze has stopped fully. I arise, mud my shorts, decide up the glass and gingerly open the door. The air-conditioned air is supernaturally inviting. I take an enormous breath and really feel rejuvenated immediately.
I’ve no issues in my life. None which might be what I’d name “actual issues”. I’m informed that modern-day issues of modern-day people are additionally respectable issues. That simply because we have now higher medical science, the marvels of expertise at our finger-tips, every kind of meals from everywhere in the world spilling out of the fridge, it doesn’t invalidate the issues we face.
Having by no means been comfy with that notion, I’m wondering, what are our greatest issues these day? Somebody stated one thing imply to me on social media? Pigeons dirty my laundry? I awoke an hour after the alarm went off? Not with the ability to determine which lodge to curry favor with, for a celebration with my pals? Which sort of mango to eat? ( There are three varieties in my fridge proper now. )
No marvel my sister laughed her ass off after I informed her that I bought a stiff neck, as a consequence of a muscle pull, though I did nothing all day.
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